Hapkido

I am a 55-year-old woman that recently completed a pilgrimage of hiking over 600 miles across Wyoming to raise awareness of Generational Trauma. Generational trauma is trauma that is passed down from generation to generation. It takes its bold form in poverty, substance abuse, and all forms of domestic violence. This I call, “Big T-trauma”. This trauma is to the outside, the body, it is easy to see, and easy to identify as abuse and trauma. But I want to make people aware of a more subtle form of trauma that I like to call “little t-trauma.” This is emotional and mental abuse, humiliation, and shame. It is trauma to the soft squishy inside of us. It is unseen, hard to identify, and masks itself to look like a wide range of mental health disorders.  I have an official diagnosis of Complex Post Traumatic Stress disorder, or CPTSD, because of that generational trauma. This can express itself in me from mild triggers to extreme emotional dysregulation. In me, it can be very intense panic attacks, deep cycles of depression, or any of the intense fight or flight trauma response. It can get to the point that it starts negatively affecting all…